I have to be honest, I am so TIRED of guessing. I am tired of wondering and waiting, and watching for signs of the future. I am tired of applying for jobs or opportunities that feel right and turn out to be wrong. I am tired of thinking I have it figured out and then guessing wrong. I am tired of hoping, dreaming, planning, and being wrong. I am ready to know the future. So, God, if you are reading this, I believe You do, please, tell me SOMETHING, because I just don’t know what’s next.
Two years ago, I resigned from my job and moved here, and as hard as it has been, I know it was the right thing to do. I stayed home with my kids, once again, it was hard but right. I learned photography, and I have fallen in love with writing. I have applied for teaching jobs, and signed up to sub. I have volunteered. At the time things feel right, and then they don’t. Please, just give me a hint, tell me something, because I am tired of guessing, hoping and dreaming.
God, if you are testing me again, testing my faith, could you please, please please, give me some more patience? In this moment, today, I feel like I could use some more.